I Miss You

Going sentimental again! Whew!



Before I start blabbing though, I'mma first explain why I've been gone for quite some time. Reason is: blackout. A storm hit the Philippine asrchipelago last week. It caused some damage, but luckily, it didn't do much on our side of town. We had electricity difficulties for three days and internet disconnection for a week.

As you can tell, things are bettr now, so........ON WITH THE BLOG!



The reason why I'm sad and senti? I blame HIM! (*I'll hide his identity under the name "Cody"; obviously not his real name.*)



So you can understand the whole story, I'll have to tell you the very beginning, which is.......



In the beginning of the school year, i found myself a nice, decent, cute guy. (He's not mine, but I can ALWAYS dream! Haha.) Let's just say I think I like him. I've been going on and on about him all week that I've forgotten about Cody.



I saw Cody again hours ago. It was the first time this week that I had a good look at him.



You know what I felt the moment I saw him? It was a mixture of sadness and longing.
It then hit me then that I MISSED HIM.

Why I felt it, I cannot explain. It was like I've been pushing myself to the NEW GUY in an attempt to forget Cody. It's pobably my system's way of showing resistance since I know I don't stand a chance with Cody and I just don't want to feel the 'heartache'.

Will it always be this way? Finding a guy, liking him so much, stealing glances from afar.
The way I see it, it's a sad story I have this feeling that all I'll ever end up doing is staring from a safe distance and just waiting and longing for NOTHING.

"Will I always stare in the distance......or will
someone come and save me from my misery?"

Made of Honour

(Warning: Movie Review aka SPOILERS!)

The movie was quite amazing. I must say, for an emotional sucker like me, it was one of the best I've seen so far.

It was about a man, Tom, and his girl best friend, Hannah. His daily routines almost usually involves her, but when Hannah leaves for Scotland, Tom is so lost. It was then that he discovers his feelings for her. Sadly, SHE WENT BACK WITH A NEW FIANCEE!

Oooh! I forgot to mention something!
A day before Hannah mentioned her trip, Tome invited her to his father's (sixth) wedding. Well, to the viewer's eye, Hannah was totally in love with him, but to the oblivious moron, she was a mere friend. (*cough cough* His fault she found a fiancee *cough cough*)

As the bride's best friend, Tom was appointed 'Maid of Honor' (and everyone thought he was gay). As the maid of honor, he had to be supportive and all that, but he and his friends had another plan in mind (destroy the wedding from within).

In Scotland, a few days before the wedding, Tom drops everything and tries to tell her what he feels before it was far too late. Hannah, judging from his histoy (sleeping around), obviously didn't believe him.

On the morning of the wedding, Tome headed home saying he couldn't bear giving her away.

Just in time though, he came back and stole his bride. (HINT: Triesanne's tears. Haha!)

I am VERY aware that this is one hell of a crap review, but the hell with it! I suggest that you go and watch MADE OF HONOUR if you haven't yet.

Dancing In The Rain

With the second week of school over and a storm interrupting all electrical sources, I was able to have a taste of simplicity which brought out the kid in me.

When I woke up, I grabbed my blankey (Yes, I just wrote blankey) and curled up on the sofa. I had some biscuits and talked with my mum, lola and cousins (we were the only ones up).

Around mid-noon, I had a nice cup of Milo with my cousins and we had a bonding session. Then we realized the rain was very inviting so, we decided to get out and have some fun.

Running around in circles, doing ballet-like stunts, taunting my younger cousin who wasn't allowed to join. It was the most fun a girl like me could have.

I've been so caught up with adolescent stuff that I've forgotten I still am a kid. It's good to have some crazy, clean fun from time to time. It reminds me about the good memories I've made while growing up......and it allows me to continue making new ones while I still do.

It was one hell of a storm that had an impact to our country. But to a girl like me, it made me appreciate simplicity.

Going Sentimental

I'm done with research works and I decided to take this opportunity to post up a blog entry.

Basically, today all I did was go sentimental over song lyrics and all those other stuff. I'm posting up all the quotes I recall thinking about.

"The authentic armor that once covered a
noble knight is now tinfoil wrapped around a man equally degraded."

>>> My idea of the 21st century men. I'm not saying all men are like that. You have to admit...most are!

"We grew older but we're still young. We never
grew out of this feeling that we won't give up."

>>> No comment. I just love it.

"I'm one of a million hearts you'll some day
break."

>>> Been there and I know it hurts. But hey...better to have loved than never at all, right?!

"We're reflecting on misunderstandings and
miscommunications."

>>> To me, this shows how much communication affects a relationship. If there isn't enough of it, relationships could end up broken.

"Love is won over by ignorance."

>>> Self-explanatory.

"These pills weren't meant to hurt you today
and evermore. If fools were meant to fuck you, then why do fools fall in
love."

>>> I love the last line. The whole thing tells me that things don't always go as planned and sometimes we just have to deal.

"The worst is over. You can have the best of
me."

>>> Can't explain it, to be honest. It means so many different things.

"When I was 17 years old and there's nothing left but love."

>>> This goes out to all the teenagers!!!

"She sees in him an angel in the cruelest of
worlds."

>>> When we find someone we admire, they just seem so extraordinary in our eyes. It's the beauty of BEING IN LOVE.

"Screaming out for love."

>>> It has my name written all over it.

"Lie to me if you must, my dear. Give me a
reason to have you here."

>>> Applies to me. I've reached this certain point when everything that's ever happened didn't mean anything to me and I was ready to give up anything to have our friendship the way it was. (Don't ask.)

"Are you worth fighting for? I need to
know."

>>> Desperae times make us ask this. Sometimes, we'll NEVER find the answer.

"Hurt me........I DARE you."

>>> I swear half the guys I've ever liked won't be afraid to do so.


I have to scram now. I might get caught for this illegal act.
Best luck with life dudes!

Keep on rocking!

Are You Listening

I'm obviously bored at the mo. I'm supposed to be sleeping but it's too effing uncomfortable and cold and my imagination is working overtime.
I actually made a poem, of all things! Well, to be honest, more like organized phrases thingies. Call it whatever you like!

THE WAY I ROLL

I may look a bit mean to you
I may seem obnoxious
As intimidating as that may seem
I'm a friendly person too

I may say the meanest things
And do the most hurtful actions
Know that I don't always mean them
And that I have good intentions

I love to laugh out loud
When I find a joke so funny
I can't always stay that serious
'Cause that's just not the real me

I could look so confident
And yet so shy at times
There's more to what you see
Read between the lines

I'm fat, I'm opinionated
I'm egoistic and all
Call me whatever you like
That's just the way I roll

PRINCE CHARMING STATUS REPORT:
I'm currently TRYING to post up chapter 8. I've already typed it up but there's a slight problem.....my brother is using the laptop!!!
I'll see what I can do though. I spent time on that!

SCHOOL GIRL STATUS REPORT:
I have three frikin research works at hand. There's also this scheduled diagnostic test for Chemistry class tomorrow.
It's unbelievable how I manage to continue writing for my fic. I guess it just shows how much I love to write.

SHOUT OUTS:
Belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my bestie!!! Dude, you know I luv yah!

Mr. Piso, EFFF YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!


Gotta run yo! Research works await me!
Rock On! \m/

I'm A Black Woman In White

So as not to raise confusion...please ignore the title I decided to give this post.
Long story short, I spent some time in a pool (after 4 months of staying away from it) and came out with a darker skin tone.

We celebrated my bestie's 15th today. The proper date would have been tomorrow, but since it's a Sunday, we decided to celebrate it now.

RECAP OF THE HAPPENINGS:

We met at Marapara (NOGCC). I was fashionably late yet again. We did a bit of sing along and then changed into our swim suits. We swam for a couple of minutes then decided on doing a photo shoot (pics are in Ynez's cam...will post some as soon as she uploads them).

As Andrea and I put it, we were "independent models" for category "ASA". lols.

After that, we had some snacks. Fries with mayo and ketchup. Mmmmmm. Then we did some food art. Yeah, we rocked.

Ynez's brother came. He was our driver/delivery man/waiter for the day (I feel sorry for him). He waited for us while we got changed...and then had another photo shoot in the locker room.

Oozie drove us to Robinson's and we ordered at Shakey's. We got a take out and went up to the food court where we met Kathy. Stupid guard won't let us eat. Pooo. So Oozie had to buy something. He bought cake (two slices for P70) and candles (P2 each)!!!

After that, we watched Kung Fu Panda!!! Po was soooooo cute.
I'd say it was one kewl movie. And I learned something from it, believe it or not.
I learned that sometimes it takes trust and belief for something to come true or become special. And also that we should never dwell on what happened in the past nor over think the future because what happened then has put us where we are now and what will happen tomorrow is the outcome of what we will do now.

'Nuff about that.

There was none after that, to be honest. We had our aimless walking around. Went through stuff in stores and just walked around until Andrea had to go and until I had to go.

*RECAP OVER*


I have nothing else planned for today. I think I'll sleep early. My head is throbbing and I think I need some water.

Anyways. Tomorrow is the last day of the weekend. The next day is effin' school. It's formal class time so serious Triesanne will come out to play.

I have to go. A nice McFly interview awaits me in the other window. Stay clean, yeah?

I Realized That

I realized that...I still like my ex-crush from Freshman year.

I realized that...he is the only one to make me cry.

I realized that...Charlie Simpson is fit (or at least, used to be).

I realized that...I'm a very deep person when you talk to me seriously.

I realized that...true love just doesn't exist in this world (add in 'ANYMORE').

I realized that...the truest form of love is very rare and might as well be considered non-existent.

I realized that...what I've went through in fourteen years has helped me become a stronger and much better person.

I realized that....drinking water is very essential.

I realized that...I love to blabber a lot.

I realized that...I'm a very corny person and sometimes I myself get shocked by that fact.

I realized that...I just ate A BILLION calories in one snacking.

I realized that...I'd be pretty disappointed if I don't make it to my dream school.

I realized that...I talk a WHOLE lot.

I realized that...'SHITBALLS' is a really funny curse word.

I realized that...I'm so totally in love with McFly.

I realized that...I should stop now.

I realized that...I should really say goodbye now.

So...uhh....BYE!!!

All The Madness

Three days of friggin school over!!!

We have no class tomorrow because the teachers have to prepare for the PAASCU visit.


How I've been this week? Pretty much okay.
Nothing's been bothering me at school. I'm happy with my section, I'm okay with my classmates and my adviser is pretty cool.
Oh wait! There is one teacher who keeps pissing me off!!! I'll call him PISO.
Piso is just so GRRRRRR!!! He keeps showing off his power just 'cause nobody wants to stand up against him for our grades' sake.

Other than that, I just want to say: HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY PHILIPPINES!!!
Today is the super official one although it was celebrated on the 9th.

What else....hmmmm. Ooooh! Thomas Fletcher's 23rd!!! I have another photoshop project in my hands!!! I'll prolly send him a banner saying happy birthday from me. I'll post it up here when I finish with it pero I'll try so badly to post it up on myspace THE DAY of his birthday. I don't know how I'll pull that off, but then again....smuggling time!?!

Anyways...I have to scram. My head's throbbing and I want to catch up on sleep. Freedom!!! Ooooweeeeee!!!! 'Till next time dudes!!!

So Much Has Changed

So basically, I'm feeling a bit off and sentimental. I want to cry today.
As Drea put it, effects of the last day of Summer.

Now would probably be the best time to update you about my coming week since I probably won't be able to post any more in the next four days.

Tomorrow is the OFFICIAL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. I was a bit excited at first, but now....I wanna say "Fuck that!"
No matter how I want to kill time at the moment, I'll have to focus on school the moment it starts. Fasten your seat belts, ladies and gents, 'cause it shall be a rough ride.

Since I'm not really feeling it, I'll leave the school topic up there and move on to another topic. My ficcy!!!

Prince Charming is doing fine. So far, only three chapters are up and the third one would be my last chap. Since I'll be given five days to think about addages, I would be able to come up with a million nice chapters that I can post on the weekends. This shall be interesting.

Now, let's move on to another topic: Why I want to cry.

Yeah, well. To be honest, I don't know how to explain this. It's just that my head hurts and I'm just feeling bad today. (I really should get some sleep after this.)

So as not to annoy you, I'll go now. You guys take care. Good luck with school, yeah?

I'M IN LOVE WITH DANIEL ALAN DAVID JONES!!!

Prince Charming

Hello again!!!

I'm just here to report about my fic.

The title is 'Prince Charming' and it's about the lovely Dougie Poynter. What my readers don't know, what happens will ever-so-slightly be based on my own experiences as a newbie High School student. But well, who I fell for wasn't as hot as Poynter here.

I just finished chapter 1 and so far, my readers love it. I'm deffo excited. They're making me want to post another add!!! lols

Here's the link in case you want to read!!!
http://mcflyphilippines.forumakers.com/mcfly-fan-fictions-f2/prince-charming-new-dougie-fic-i-got-you-the-1st-chappy-t114.htm

I also have here the graphic!!!
I'm so quite proud about it. It took EIGHT pictures to make that and it was hell of a task but I love the outcome so much.

That's about all I have at the mo. I'm still about to write the next add for my lovely readers. I have to have self-conrtol as to not post so fast though. I might struggle with this though. lols

Thanks for reading about my boring life! Read my fic!!!

Random Is My First, Middle and Last Name

Based on the title, I'll be rambling on about a thousand random things because I have no current topic and all I want to do is talk.

With that said, here I go.

TOPIC 1: Photoshop

I'm still a certified illiterate but I can't help but get sooooo soooo addicted to this program. As in WOAH!!! I now know how to remove/edit pimples and blemishes and has yet a lot to learn.
I have, however, made a new photoshopped picture for my signature on our forums.


It's actually not that awesome but I'm proud about it nevertheless. XD

TOPIC 2: Fan Fictions
I just finished one about Danny Jones and so far, three people have commented saying they like it.
If you would be so kind to check it out, here is the link.

http://mcflyphilippines.forumakers.com/mcfly-fan-fictions-f2/some-things-never-change-last-two-chaps-up-finished-t7.htm

The three people have encouraged me to write another fan fiction and I'm planning to do one. It's because I love to write and these people actually appreciate it.
The next fiction will be about Dougie Poynter and I've actually just finished writing the prologue.
I want to finish writing chapter 1 first and a nice graphic for the story.
After then, I'll put it up. I hope to get some feedbacks then.

TOPIC 3: Back to School
I have five more days until school. I'm not that psyched up yet but I'm kind of looking forward as well. I have a mild cold and fever problem at the moment but I'm surely not missing the first day of class. There's an air of anticipation to it so I wouldn't want to miss out.

That about wraps up my rambling. I still have to get back to that graphic making. I'm still looking for a nice Dougie pic that I could blend in with a few others.
Take care and best of luck with whatever!

The Last Straw

It seemed like everything and everyone was testing my patience last night. They were pissing me off. I've always been trying to let the smile on my face stay there because being sad and lonely isn't fun anymore. I've been there a lot and as much as possible, I don't want to go back.

Out of anger I wrote some phrases down. Funny how it ended up sounding like a poem. It actually works so here I go.

ONE GOOD CRY

Nobody cares

They're all bringing me down

Testing my patience

Not making a sound

Evil eyes, innocent smiles

That's all they let me see

What they don't know: I'm aware

They're planning my destruction

It's sad and pathetic

How crappy it gets

It's all a game of deception

Treachery at its best

Dab away at the last drops of sadness

I can't let them win

No more tears, I'm standing tall

Pretentious is all I am

Nobody cares

Nobody ever will

Call it crappy but I was just plain angry. Once I wrote that though, it felt like my anger began to escape my head.

Gym Class Loser

I'm sitting here feeling a bit pathetic.

I didn't go to the gym today. My friggin arms hurt so bad from the weights things and I'm feeling a bit ill. My throat is dry and raw and warm air is coming from my nose. The early signs of fever possibly.

I only need one thing. PAIN KILLERS!!!

Damn! I can't fully straighten out my arm. It feels abused and all that. It's crap. I can't even lift a glass properly. My hand is always shaking and it feels friggin heavy.

Gawd! I have to go. I'mma go get myself some medicine. Hope that eases the pain though.

Toodles!!!

We Don't Care!

McFly's new single is out. It's a very nice tune and I really really love the lyrics. It's called One For The Radio.

Basically, it talks about what the guys feel about the media and all those people who've been saying bad things about them and putting them down.

I actually feel kind of sorry for them. No matter how many people support them, you can't blame them if they feel bad about what the fewer number say.

I'm actually more of humored than angry at those people who publicly say they think McFly suck and all that. I mean, if they really hated McFly, why make the effort? For all their dumb heads know, they're giving McFly publicity. Well, a dirty one at that, but publicity nevertheless.

There's also one particular site who make fun of McFly and their fans. I've been there once. Just read but didn't do anything. It was pretty much crap. People who actually believe those rubbish people posted are s***heads. Yeah, I'll call them that.

Going back to the song, it's the official single of their album and by the sound of it, I have a feeling it'll be an awesome one.

Go and listen to it. I command you...again.